Stop chasing the like

**I wanted to post something but I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to write about.  So I’ll just do some free writing – here goes nothing.

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Well I can share that I listened to a podcast featuring an old friend (we met in grade 9 so were friend for over 15 years) that I distanced myself from about a year ago.  I feel bad that we haven’t been able to keep in touch and I am happy / proud of her for following her inner calling.  But I know in my heart we are in different places now (although we both have very similar thinking about certain subjects till this day).  The thing is – I am saying I am happy for her based on what I see in her social media pages slash what she projects of herself online.   I know that behind the scenes there is a lot of struggle and work.  In any case I wish the best for her as I know she would for me.

I am proud of myself for giving up chicken and bacon (oops might have forgotten to mention that here).  I feel better for telling my family (after keeping it a secret for about 2 months) but I realized it was time and everyday that I choose to fuel myself with less animal products, I am happier.  Eating plant strong/plant based encourages creativity in the kitchen.  And that’s one thing you should know about me by now – I love being creative.

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I want to buy pretty things but I love that I am not. (Ok don’t get my wrong, I do buy stuff but not all the stuff and more so out of necessity / less out of “I saw it I want it”).  Hence why my #OOTD shots feature all old clothes.

Although minimalism seems a little extreme, the principals behind the movement really speak to me and resonate with the direction I see my life going.  Yes this entire outfit is all old stuff from my closet. But I love that!

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Shorts (similar) | Button Up | Tanktop | Flip Flops

Instagram, branding, #sponsored posts etc all have a way of making me feel bad/guilty/inferior for not doing what the cool kids are doing.  But then I tell myself “self, what do you really want …you want to be creative and make things because that voice inside of you won’t rest until you’ve done something creative every damn day”.  For me it could be taking a picture, bullet journaling, make something new for dinner, painting or writing.

Other things on my mind: stop eating cookies, stop scrolling on my phone so much, cuddle the Hubz more, buy a new moleskin, write more if I am in the flow, finish reading a book, keep my morning journaling routine, find 2 minutes in the day to be still/meditate.

Yeaaaa! It’s Friday – see you on the flip side!

I want to remember this day

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August 16-17 2017 will be the day I remember that I did it. The thing I’ve been so fearful of as a mom of two.

Taking care of both my girls solo.  

Going out with both my girls solo.

(…No help or even moral support with me near by)

And I did it!

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Doing a daycare pick up with both kids is routine for me, but doing that, followed by trip to Melonhead to get Miss S’s hair cut, followed by a walk around the grocery store as we waited for the Drs walk in clinic to open was uncharted territory for me.

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The next day, I took them out for some fresh air in the morning, a grocery run in the afternoon and then to the library. The second day included a poopie diaper change in the trunk of our car while it rained cats and dogs. Then dealing with 2 meltdowns in a matter of 4 minutes. 

But what I will remember most about this day: I conquered my fear, I took joy in listening to Miss S belt it out on a frozen song (realizing that’s how I took found my singing voice – singing Disney songs), the interaction between the girls and that I conquered a fear.

Inspiring creativity in my kids

You know as a parent you are doing something creatively right (especially when it literally feels like chaos in the house 24/7) when you kid asks you to put the photograph you just captured on your camera in their room. But what exactly am I doing:  I am taking time to do something creative everyday.  Luckily my kiddos see what I do.

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We went on a stroller walk, which I turned into a photography walk because it ended up being the only chance I had all week to use my camera.  I’ve kept my 50MM lens on my DSLR for about a month now to create a constraint in hopes that it would allow my creativity to flourish within a restriction.  It has – and I am loving it.

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We had a great weekend, family dinners, breakfasts out, soccer practice, lots of coffee, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and even a McD’s run (because we are so used to daycare taking care of lunches :P)

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My to-do list is long and already in play.  I even got started on some of my planning.

Toronto Trippin’ with Miss El

When we left our downtown condo I was about 4 months pregnant with Miss S and I couldn’t wait to get out of there.  Living in the city has it’s perks (everything was walking distance) but I was so over the congestion and car pollution I was really looking forward to more green-space and less concrete jungle.

For me, taking a solo-mama-babe-in-the-stroller visit to the city is a real accomplishment.  It’s like a #RookieMom rite of passage!  I mean with Miss S I did it when she was closer to one year old.  But with our Ellie Bell it happened at 3 months.

We ended up driving down (wasn’t too keen on nursing on the Go Transit during the commuter rush) and seeing my co-workers, introducing Miss El to my mentor and then having lunch with the Mister after visiting his office.  Later in the afternoon, I wandered around Eaton Centre, broke my no-buy-challenge after 27 days (although disappointing it did make an impact on my spending habits – more on that in another post).

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Love the vines growing on buildings near Forest Hill

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In the super glam elevator at H&M – which was obviously made for selfies!

Although do-able with a double stroller, the Eaton Centre is not as stroller friendly as I thought.  I was walking from either ends of the mall to get to the elevators,which were always heavily in use (had to miss two rides because they were crowded with people).  I got over 13,000 steps throughout the entire day in my comfy #AthletiLeasure sneaks.

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Made my option a little more vegan friendly by saying no meat please and getting tofu instead.

For our lunch date, we went to Spring Rolls.  I had the tofu chowmein noodles and Hubz had the chicken pad thai.  We chit chatted and made goggly eyes at each other – it’s been a long time.  I almost always take a part of my dish home but it was so good I ended up finishing it (even when Miss El needed to be held).

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Overall it was nice trip into the city (despite the rain which I was fully prepared for).  Planning another trip later this year.

A goal is a goal

I have 6 more days left in my blog challenge and although I have a blog calendar I don’t have anything prepped for today’s post.  And by today I actually mean yesterday.  And by prepped I mean have my talking points or pictures ready.  I definitely will be going back to my 3 day a week posting scheduling after this challenge is over.  Not sure what I was thinking when I thought I could do 5 days a week of blogging (I remember my teacher saying that even 4 days a week of blogging is not easy).  But it’s a goal I set for myself and I intend to meet it.  So today’s post is more of a #DiaryEntry.

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Photo taken circa 2011 in Paris after my MBA convocation

Yesterday was the mister’s MBA convocation.  (If you need ideas on how to spend solo parenting time with your kid you can read this).  At first Miss S didn’t want to attend because she was going to have water play day at her preschool.  I was a little sad but also relieved because having her miss a celebration of her father’s achievement would be disappointing but keeping a toddler quite and still for 2 hours would not be easy.  However because the forecast for the day was raining she had decided that she didn’t want to go to preschool and would attend the graduation ceremonies.  Luckily, I had 2 sets of grandparents to help! …All went well except when both kids wanted me to hold them LOL.    Thank goodness for my sling and strong arms :)

This morning we I had early wake up calls (thanks to our #HumanAlarmClocks).  Brought the older one to our bed and she played with my hair and back so I could sleep for another 20 minutes.  Managed to get her ready for the day (bathroom, dressed, breakfast and play time) and write in my journal before the baby woke up.  We let the new grad sleep in 1.5 hours more before I made the toddler wake him up :)

This evening we are heading out to my parents house for a belated Father’s Day BBQ.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful Saturday.

Weekend Activities + Weekly Goals (Part 7)

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We had an awesome weekend.  The weather was superb and the blazing heat was welcomed because we experienced such an overcast and gloomy spring.

Friday we had wings at home and then packed up the car to get ready for the next day.  We spent the better part of the day at the beach we were pleasantly surprised as to how much Miss S enjoyed herself but were perplexed as to why Miss El seemed so confused the entire time we were there.  We later realized it was because we were all wearing sunglasses (and maybe she couldn’t recognize us lol).

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Sunday we were at a birthday party.  Backyard bouncy castle, Pizza with chip toppings and lots of kids of course.

The workweek was actually spent running sooo many errands.  From doing groceries, to gift shopping, to getting last minute stuff for the day at the beach as well as planning for Miss S’ 3rd birthday.

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Also I’d just like to add (so my future self can remember) that even with this list of weekly goals and regular maternity leave tasks, I still accomplish and complete many other to-do items to run and mange the house like: clean the floors, prep dinner, make lunches, do preschool drop off/pick up, general tidying, multiple loads of laundry, pay bills, claim receipts etc etc in any case here is how I did with my goals last week.

  1. Read another chapter of the book I am reading (sadly no, I am struggling to find the right time to read – holding a book while nursing isn’t very comfortable)
  2. Bread this week? Bread this week! (nope, and I realized i can’t commit to this goal until after June)
  3. Take some more everyday photography shots and move photos from SD Card yep, see this post
  4. Get my 10K steps 5/7 days next week & Work out 4/7 times DONE
  5. Take Miss El to the Born to Read library program (weather did not permit, and parking this until the end of June)
  6. Figure out a layout for our 2015 photo album Yep and started
  7. Update family room painting from black on white to white on black
  8. Thursday Meditation
  9. Put away all clean laundry
  10. Order Miss S birthday Cake (we talked to the bakery and got the details and will be happening tomorrow)

Ok 5 out of 10 this past week.  The next couple of days are all about Miss S birthday!

  1. Read a chapter
  2. Take some everyday/creative photography
  3. Get my 10K steps in 5/7 days and workout 4/7 days
  4. Tuesday Self Care: Mediate, Bath and Yoga
  5. Put away clean laundry
  6. Order birthday cake
  7. Finalize day of party plan + list of things to bring
  8. Join Miss S’ Preschool bday party
  9. Find family pictures from last 3 years
  10. Send pix to friends

Have a great week!

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