She mentioned to me to enjoy my time off (Maternity Leave) because she could see the gears turning as I was talking to her about my thoughts for when I return. She suggested to me to make a plan and set a date and then not to think about any of that until that time. She told me to enjoy my time off (not really time off but you know) and enjoy my family.
I am – totally and completely.
Yesterday I walked back from the baby’s library program in the beautiful 24 degree weather with the sun shinning down and I couldn’t have been more content and present.
And I realized that part of me enjoying my time is having something to look forward to and something to achieve for myself. I need this to feel like myself. And if I don’t feel like myself, I won’t be happy. And if a mom isn’t happy than it’s not a good thing for anybody.
So this is just a reminder to myself, to keep having goals (small daily wins and big audacious dreams) keep doing me so I can take care of myself and my family.
I know people don’t understand extreme food choices like veganism. And these movies and the overall thoughts behind these docus can seem a bit pushy (especially to people who like red meat). But I’ve always thought about being vegetarian (and eventually vegan). It all started about 10 years ago when I read this book, but I kept my thoughts to myself.
The major theme of these docus has been food/health/environment; pretty much everything good in the world is pointing to a vegan lifestyle. I’ve been dabbling in meals here and there that are vegetarian or purely vegan (i.e. no meat or dairy). So far the meals have been satisfying and make me feel good (not necessarily in a ‘save the world’ kind of way but ‘wow, I’m cooking in a new and different way’ kind of way lol). Additionally not having to deal with cleaning a cutting board and knives to avoid contamination has been a plus :)
The Hubz and I are in talks about our food choices. But for now we are just talking and I am doing a lot of experimentation and personal recipe testing. Would be lying if I didn’t say it wasn’t fun to challenge myself in this way.
Maybe we’ll do a 2 week trial to see if we can do a vegan diet in our home or maybe we’ll become weekday vegetarians. Or maybe I’ll find it too difficult to give up cheese and chocolate. I see lots of discussion and research in our future.
Today I had my FIRST solo mom outing with my girls. Like any mom I got prepared the night before by packing a few healthy snacks and my toddler’s kid friendly laptop as well as the diaper bag for the baby. Miss S really helped by staying true to her “big girl” status but of course she eventually got tired of holding it in and had to be in my arms for a little bit. I was sure to tell her how proud of her I was.
People were so helpful. I guess when you see a parent out numbered by their kids, it only make sense to help out! I have finally had my #ItTakesAVillage moment.
And just a tangent thought here: I realized that on MondayI had the icky feeling because I had consumed more than I created (binge watched Netflix, Instastories and way too many Youtube blogs) . It was like a light bulb went off in my head when I realized that the feeling of being drained, empty and depleted was because of a simple concept. I ended up feeling lifted when I took care of my mind and body before bed.
I seem to really like just writing what I am thinking with these OOTDs. I think I’ll keep it that way going forward!
Honestly most of the days I wear leggings and a t-shirt. #MatLeaveProblems
On occasion I’ll wear something cute, but I almost always forget to get a picture Plus having two kiddos doesn’t lend well to take outfit of the day shots.
So here I am recreating what I wear in my master bedroom with a tripod. It’s not glamours in the least, but it makes me feel like me (well the me that used to take tons of #OOTD pictures before having kids)
I meditated again today. I am sure this is most peoples’ problem with meditation, in that they can’t keep their mind still (i.e. the influx of thoughts doesn’t stop). When I feel like my thoughts have taken over, I try and bring my focus back by thinking about an ocean wave continuously crashing on a sandy shore.
I also did my sun salutations. I realized that I felt more of a flow with my practice this week than last. I also immediately felt the soreness in my arms.
My last thought of the day is my buy nothing challenge. It’s been 6 days and it’s already been difficult – not sure how I’ll keep this up for 3 months. I almost convinced myself that I needed to replace my sea salt hair spray, thought I could pick up a new ‘summer colour’ for my nails and tried to find logical reasons to buy another cold shoulder top (I love those by the way). I think the feeling of buying is what I truly crave which is somewhat being settled by buying things for events (party supplies, birthday gifts etc). But I love practicing restraint rather than impulse buying. Ironically it’s very freeing.