A little bit of vulnerability and a lot of openness

Screen Shot 2017-10-11 at 8.33.08 PM Screen Shot 2017-10-11 at 8.34.53 PMIt’s hard to believe that six months of my mat leave is already over. Well technically I’m already halfway trhrough the seventh month which leaves me with five-ish months left of maternity leave.  This blog post is just some free writing because I have a ton of thoughts and I need to get them out.  I don’t want to over edit this post because then I’ll probably won’t hit publish.

When I first started my leave, I set a lot of goals for myself during this time. One of the biggest priorities I had  established for myself was to stay motivated and productive.  With setting that goal I managed to get a lot accomplished sooner than later during my leave.  Setting such a big goal (essentially dreaming big) also help me learn about myself.

I’ve learned that I’m a creative. I need to do something creative everyday to feel fulfilled.

Being fit and working out is important to me.  I feel good when I make getting a workout in a priority.

I’ve learned that writing publicly makes me more intentional but also highlights / serves as a reminder of my failures (which obviously doesn’t bother me very much as you can go through my weekly goals and notice many of the tasks repeated week after week because they never got done).

I’ve learned that I am very good at starting things but not so good at finishing them.  Like this, this and this  :roll:

I’ve learned some really cool productivity hacks such as using the microphone on my iPhone to write blog posts and lists, the effects of bullet journaling on my everyday life.  And that #DocumentYourDays is important as reflecting back helps you correct as you move forward.

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I’m inspired by motivational quotes, journaling, inspirational people on social media. (I already knew these things but it’s a good reminder to myself).

Matt leave it’s both invigorating and isolating (more on this in a future post).

I’ve also learned that being self-motivated within an unstructured day takes a lot of work and effort.

Self care is really important.

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Creating more than I consume prevents burn out (and overall anxiety).

I am not perfect and and I shouldn’t get let myself get down and out if I can’t do everything right from the get go.  I’ve learned that its more about doing something a little bit better a little bit every day.

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Miss El’s six month update

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And here we are, ½ year old Ellie Bellie.  She celebrated like any baby should – in Las Vegas!  :-P

Right before she turned 6 months she figured out how to roll from her tummy to her back. She’s been trying new foods and grabbing things we are holding in our hands or food we are putting in our mouths!

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She’s really into examining things by moving them from hand to hand, putting them in her mouth or just starting at it intently.  She still loves trees and I think she kind of loves the song “Part of your world” from The Little Mermaid.  She’s trying really hard to sit up unassisted and is not a fan when we take her toes out of her mouth during a diaper change.

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Ellie is really giving us a run for our (parenting) money but from I am understanding that is the natural evolutionary path of adding another kiddo to the mix.

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I want to remember this day

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August 16-17 2017 will be the day I remember that I did it. The thing I’ve been so fearful of as a mom of two.

Taking care of both my girls solo.  

Going out with both my girls solo.

(…No help or even moral support with me near by)

And I did it!

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Doing a daycare pick up with both kids is routine for me, but doing that, followed by trip to Melonhead to get Miss S’s hair cut, followed by a walk around the grocery store as we waited for the Drs walk in clinic to open was uncharted territory for me.

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The next day, I took them out for some fresh air in the morning, a grocery run in the afternoon and then to the library. The second day included a poopie diaper change in the trunk of our car while it rained cats and dogs. Then dealing with 2 meltdowns in a matter of 4 minutes. 

But what I will remember most about this day: I conquered my fear, I took joy in listening to Miss S belt it out on a frozen song (realizing that’s how I took found my singing voice – singing Disney songs), the interaction between the girls and that I conquered a fear.

Miss El’s five month update

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I think mom’s of multiples will agree, it’s harder to believe how quickly time passes after you had more than one baby.  I know I say this over and over again but I can’t believe it and feel I have to remind my future self of this phenomenan.
Our Ellie bellie is 5 months now.  She’s getting more proficient with playing with her toys and enjoys being in her bumbo.  She’s even found a toy she likes in her ‘circle of neglect’ aka the exersaucer.  She’s started baby cereal (we use this one) and has figured out that when a spoon is being moved towards her face she should open her mouth!  Although she seems to get super jealous when she sees any of us eating other than what she’s eating.  She rolled over today, although non of us where near her to see it (I was in the kitchen, where the counter was between her and I, Miss S was having a snack facing the opposite way and the mister was upstairs :P)
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She is very opinionated and always has a lot to say (or shriek!). She still loves watching swaying trees.  She LO0oO0oves watching her big sissy and will spot her from across the room.
On a side note, how have 5 months of my Mat Leave already finished!
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Miss El’s four month update

Our Ellie-belly is 4 months. She’s found her voice and uses it to make a hilarious throat gurgle or a high pitched shriek (just in time for witching hour).

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She’s also realized she has hair and two ears. She’s found her knees and is trying to understand how they attach to her feet and toes. She is very ticklish, loves to kick us in the face (or kick anything really, bath water, parts of her play gym and even the air) and her fingers are her favourite snack (much to big sissy’s dismay “Elowa we don’t put our fingers in our moups”).  She also loves to stare at her sister, especially in the car after preschool pick up.

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Her favorite toys are the classic o-ball, o-ball cricket turn toy, as well as this bear because it’s perfect to practice her BLW skills.  On that note, she’s started following us as we eat (food from plate to hand, hand to mouth and then it disappears).  I think she may have figured out her name (or at least recognize it in the sing song way we say it).

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I am having a hard time keeping her finger nails trimmed and not exactly sure what to do with her hair (head bands just don’t stay on!)

Miss El has already visited three work place offices, been to Canada’s Wonderland, several playgyms and a few birthday parties.  Can’t believe that she’ll be starting solids in a few months and then I’ll be halfway into my Mat Leave :O

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#MothersDay2017

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Honestly I started the post almost 4 days ago and never got around to finishing it.  Between being there with my kids, cooking, laundry, getting back into fitness/fitbit, running errands, trying my very hardest to spend time with my hubby (while trying my hardest not to pass out on the couch at 8:30) my 5am scheduled posts have taken a back seat.  I let one slide (ok Monday’s post also didn’t almost happen on time) but definitely going to put in the work to get Friday’s post in on time.   Why the pressure on myself?  Well first off its not pressuring myself, writing, taking beautiful photos, editing, thinking, setting deadlines, dressing up for an OOTD – makes me feel good about myself.   Plus I LOVE the feeling of accomplishment and staying motivated is a huge goal for me over the next year.  Okay now that THATS out of the way…. :)

Mother’s Day 2017 was ahhh-mazzzing!  I got the sweetest potted seedling from Miss S (c/o her preschool class) and a gorgeous pendent necklace (similar to what I posted here). Plus I got treated to alone time in the bathroom (I know such a luxury), Breakfast in bed with the cutest homemade gift from the Mister and Miss S (and of course Miss El).

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I listened to the most refreshing podcast episode this morning about parenting your little ones at typical summer events (such as weddings and grad ceremonies – both of which we will be attending in the coming months).  I would love if my kids could take every nap in the own bed/crib and don’t have to nag them to eat their meal – but having friends/family and the related events doesn’t always lend itself to the perfect parenting situations :)  Plus the mister and I are on the go ourselves (between corporate careers, working out, schooling, night outs etc) so I am glad that I stumbled upon the episode to remind me to keep perspective and plan!

The 3 important things to remember:

  1. know you child’s tolerance level (a kid will only act in a way she is programmed for their age and it’s on me as a parent to adjust to that thinking)
  2. come prepared with loose parts that allow for quiet yet active place (lol sounds scary but each parent knows their child’s safety level so some items that were suggested are feathers, scarves etc)
  3. don’t apologize for your kids behaviour (somewhat related to 1 above)

Hope everyone had a wonderful Mother’s Day weekend!