I honestly can’t believe I am a mom to a 4 year old.  It’s hard for me to believe this is my life.  That said I am grateful my girls chose me and that I get to take this motherhood journey.  I am learning everyday the type of mother/guide/coach/authority I want to be in my daughters life.  I am learning from them, from educating myself and from my own past.

This past Sunday we did a joint 4th Birthday / Father’s day party.  Having so much family in the city make every holiday messy and chaotic.  And if I am being honest it’s always stressful.  And because right now the adults out number the kids, the kids get shafted lol.  I think if we had more littles to focus on the dynamic would be much more FUN!

With all that said I am pleased at how well the party turned out.  Before we invited everyone, we confirmed with Miss S if she was OK to share her party with the dads as it was Father’s Day, and because she is incredibly understanding she said yes.  We seamless integrated both events.

This year I kind of flaked on writing a birthday card for my eldest born (#momguilt in full effect).  But I really hope she knows that I love her with all my heart.  That even though I am not a perfect and self proclaimed bad mom that I am doing my best.  I am so incredibly grateful for her independence, obedience and leadership in our family.  She does try her best (even when it comes to eating foods she hates i.e. smoothies or scrambled eggs) and I do try my best to everything with love first.   She’s so creative and she’s always ready to some crafty activity with her girl guide of a mom.

I pray that our relationship will grow and adapt as we both “grow up”.  I will be her guiding light and voice of reason whenever she needs me.  I always do my best to give her sage old advice vs what I think she should do.  I promise to keep myself educated and aware so I don’t fall into typical traps as one does as a girl mom.