A little bit of vulnerability and a lot of openness

Screen Shot 2017-10-11 at 8.33.08 PM Screen Shot 2017-10-11 at 8.34.53 PMIt’s hard to believe that six months of my mat leave is already over. Well technically I’m already halfway trhrough the seventh month which leaves me with five-ish months left of maternity leave.  This blog post is just some free writing because I have a ton of thoughts and I need to get them out.  I don’t want to over edit this post because then I’ll probably won’t hit publish.

When I first started my leave, I set a lot of goals for myself during this time. One of the biggest priorities I had  established for myself was to stay motivated and productive.  With setting that goal I managed to get a lot accomplished sooner than later during my leave.  Setting such a big goal (essentially dreaming big) also help me learn about myself.

I’ve learned that I’m a creative. I need to do something creative everyday to feel fulfilled.

Being fit and working out is important to me.  I feel good when I make getting a workout in a priority.

I’ve learned that writing publicly makes me more intentional but also highlights / serves as a reminder of my failures (which obviously doesn’t bother me very much as you can go through my weekly goals and notice many of the tasks repeated week after week because they never got done).

I’ve learned that I am very good at starting things but not so good at finishing them.  Like this, this and this  :roll:

I’ve learned some really cool productivity hacks such as using the microphone on my iPhone to write blog posts and lists, the effects of bullet journaling on my everyday life.  And that #DocumentYourDays is important as reflecting back helps you correct as you move forward.

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I’m inspired by motivational quotes, journaling, inspirational people on social media. (I already knew these things but it’s a good reminder to myself).

Matt leave it’s both invigorating and isolating (more on this in a future post).

I’ve also learned that being self-motivated within an unstructured day takes a lot of work and effort.

Self care is really important.

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Creating more than I consume prevents burn out (and overall anxiety).

I am not perfect and and I shouldn’t get let myself get down and out if I can’t do everything right from the get go.  I’ve learned that its more about doing something a little bit better a little bit every day.

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Find Joy

I rarely listen to the news / read the newspaper.  My mornings begin with my kids and around mid day I settle into doing things for myself (reading, writing, planning, creating) or things for the house/kids (feeding, tidying etc).   I don’t like discussing the things going in the news and the world.  To be honest I didn’t even hear it on the news.  My sister told my mom about it on our group family chat.  We were there about a month ago – my entire life was there.  But instead of getting angry at the world, certain person or myself there are things we can do.  Look for the blessings, donate and of course always be kind to one another.

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Stop chasing the like

**I wanted to post something but I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to write about.  So I’ll just do some free writing – here goes nothing.

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Well I can share that I listened to a podcast featuring an old friend (we met in grade 9 so were friend for over 15 years) that I distanced myself from about a year ago.  I feel bad that we haven’t been able to keep in touch and I am happy / proud of her for following her inner calling.  But I know in my heart we are in different places now (although we both have very similar thinking about certain subjects till this day).  The thing is – I am saying I am happy for her based on what I see in her social media pages slash what she projects of herself online.   I know that behind the scenes there is a lot of struggle and work.  In any case I wish the best for her as I know she would for me.

I am proud of myself for giving up chicken and bacon (oops might have forgotten to mention that here).  I feel better for telling my family (after keeping it a secret for about 2 months) but I realized it was time and everyday that I choose to fuel myself with less animal products, I am happier.  Eating plant strong/plant based encourages creativity in the kitchen.  And that’s one thing you should know about me by now – I love being creative.

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I want to buy pretty things but I love that I am not. (Ok don’t get my wrong, I do buy stuff but not all the stuff and more so out of necessity / less out of “I saw it I want it”).  Hence why my #OOTD shots feature all old clothes.

Although minimalism seems a little extreme, the principals behind the movement really speak to me and resonate with the direction I see my life going.  Yes this entire outfit is all old stuff from my closet. But I love that!

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Shorts (similar) | Button Up | Tanktop | Flip Flops

Instagram, branding, #sponsored posts etc all have a way of making me feel bad/guilty/inferior for not doing what the cool kids are doing.  But then I tell myself “self, what do you really want …you want to be creative and make things because that voice inside of you won’t rest until you’ve done something creative every damn day”.  For me it could be taking a picture, bullet journaling, make something new for dinner, painting or writing.

Other things on my mind: stop eating cookies, stop scrolling on my phone so much, cuddle the Hubz more, buy a new moleskin, write more if I am in the flow, finish reading a book, keep my morning journaling routine, find 2 minutes in the day to be still/meditate.

Yeaaaa! It’s Friday – see you on the flip side!

I don’t like reading sad news

There is so much chaos in the world.  Especially with our neighbours to the south.  I know that a lot of people who have some influence in our world (whether its political, media, corporate etc) feel the need to use their platform to take a stand.  I think when it comes to social media it’s a slippery slope.  I love checking my feed to find inspiration and uplifting stories.  But when those people I follow talk about something outside of their niche (or brand) I feel disconnected from them.  I know what’s going (TV and newspapers) and when it’s particularly sad I just like to turn it off.  Not because I am turning a blind eye but because I want to stay positive for myself and family.

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Do you like seeing your favourite social media influencers taking a stand on political or social economic views?  Does it make you feel alienated or can you relate to them more?